A nickname I was given first by my brother in law…or at least that is how I remember it. I remember always being annoyed by it and not wanting to be called that but I let it slide since I was dating his sister. It grew on me and it stopped being annoying. Anytime someone calls me Tedward or I use it for a screen name or some game, I think of Mike. I really do wish I could hear him call me Tedward again. It’s almost been a year since his passing, I still think about him everyday and think of how things are different now. Things just aren’t the same without him…and the nickname Tedward isn’t the same either.
I had a dream last night leaving me wondering what would’ve happened had I gone to different high school. What would God or church mean to me, how girlfriends would’ve changed, how close my family would be, college, or even my career. I tend not to dwell on the past, you can’t change it. This dream has me wondering.