a rap i wrote
summer church camp 2009 changed my life. i felt God calling me to youth ministry like no other time in my life. i wrote this rap shortly after returning home
You Have Called Me, Will I Follow?
You’re yelling at me as loud as you can
I hit the mute button as if I’m the man
You’re telling me my calling, a different calling
not someone shouting or bawling
I say I don’t know for sure
but you’ve given me the cure
Putting the pieces together, the puzzle complete
Making any end I create all together meet
It’s obvious, in front of my face
I just ignore instead of giving chase
The signs are there, the trust is not
I need to give in and follow your plot
Ministry is where you’re telling me its at
Changing my current career hat
Why do I avoid the decision you’ve made
Surely I know that you can’t be played
I say I’m scared but you’re in control
I need to grab your hand and enjoy the stroll
I say I can’t afford to attend school
Blaming it on money, boy am I a fool
“What about my wife?” comes to mind
You’ll settle that for us to find
What if I’m wrong and time spent feels wasted
Not about me, I gotta give in and in your grace be basted
Why can’t I let go of my fear
Watch you take the wheel and stear
Who would have known a movie quote to mean so much
You reached in deep, on my heart a heavy touch
i found this while cleaning this week. i read it and remember writing it as a prayer. i remember the movie quote and situation like it happened yesterday. the movie 300, “What is your profession?” a guy from the praise band looked like king leonidas and signed my program that way. not a coincident. i remember being so worried about providing for my wife…she left me so that isn’t a worry now. i look at this as answered prayer. i’m not endorsing divorce. i don’t think i went to God before getting married and he had to fix my error though. i look back and think my life has been crazy and nuts but so awesome since june and what God is doing now.
